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2012-01-16T03:15:00.000-08:00

Fucking yeah, sometimes you feel the way-you are unacceptable, in everywhere, with everyone. You ignore everything, you don't feel any fucking care of every single thing. You aren't needed, you aren't the important one.

I've felt it for thousand times. I've felt it right before you felt it, right before everything's just fine-pretending that everything's just fine when everything's not. Pretending that you're okay but you're not. Pretending you careless but the truth is you care it the most. When it gets to the maximum point, you realize a thing. Pretending is pretty pathetic, pretty fuck, pretty useless.

I'm out. I'm enough for everything that had happened. I'm enough of being a loser, enough of being the weird one, enough of being jealous with those perfects. I'm really out. I wish i could do a teleportation and get a really different galaxy and path of life, and meet kind of new things-included new humans, even though i know the reality-your dream is just a piece of shit.

Damn, why i got this kind of life and year? This is much than pity.

I know i should be grateful for what i've had, but i can't handle it- when i know there's a better life that really same with a dream that i've been dreaming before. I can't hold this jealousy when i know there's people who luckier and it isn't worth with what they've bet and what i've bet. What s(he) has done and what i've done.

Life really unfair, 'uh?

Thank you.

O yeah i'm gonna quit this hell of life. I'm tired.

2012-01-04T09:56:00.000-08:00

Yeah, be good.

2012-01-01T18:05:00.000-08:00

It's a pleasure to say goodbye to you, 2011. Bad and goods were just a little part of memories. I've gone through yours. So, farewell.

Hello 2012, my year. All the wishing list that i've made will never be enough. I've been waiting for you, so don't disappointed me. I overhang everything just on you.

So, hello, it's nice to meet you.

2011-12-26T06:53:00.000-08:00

I exactly forget how it feels of.... fall in love. Fall into a new circle, path, hole, or whatever you called it.

I don't know but i've felt nothing.... Of anyone, of anything. I can't easily describe what's going on, yeah you know, when you just feel the way that it's just you who understand and know well 'bout it. You want somebody or anybody could feel the way you've felt but it's not that... easy. They're listening, but less understanding-understand as WELL as they're your twin, or your mother.

I've gotten my holiday like just... a bored thing but kind of enjoy. I enjoyed the boredom but it's so much better than going to school. For sake i'm feel more than enough for school's stuffs. It's useless.

My shattered dreams and broken heart
are mending to the self

I saw you, holding hands

standing close to someone else

Now i sit, all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone...

I'd give my best to you, nothing for me to do

But i've one last cry, one last cry

Before i leave it all behind

I've gotta put you out of my mind, this time

Stop living lie

I guess i'm down to one last cry

I was here, you were there

Guess we never could agree

When the sun shines on you

I need some love to rain on me

Still, i sit, all alone

Wishing all my feeling was gone...

Gotta get over you

Nothing for me to do

I know i gotta be strong

But 'round on me

Life goes on and on and on, and on

I'm gonna dry my eyes

Right after i have my... one last cry

It's been a while bro!

2011-12-25T11:00:00.000-08:00

Positive and negative always mixed into one. Sun with its moon, yin and yang, light and dark, white and black, good and bad, fat and thin, big and small, long and short, then.... you and me.

Hello peeps, it's been a while. I got many suck things to do in this nowadays. Exams, exercises, some minors, problems that have to be finished, and.. try to forget him, faster. Not put any attention and afraid of with its matter, because it've to be cleared soon.

I got 14th as the rank in the class and 29 for paralel (means all of students in 2 class of social. 80 students actually.) So... that thing is somewhere in the middle between good and bad. But i'm grateful even it's not the best and maximal result.

So, what is up with you all guys?

I'm not into that long post by the way. I just don't want and can't. It's a lot better if it's short, simple, but meaningful. Agree?

I'll be often to post a blog, i think. Holiday is ahead, and i have so much time to type :")

Jingle bell all the way! Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it! Have a great 2011 25th one!

Who is said that it's forbidden to say 'Merry Christmas' to christian/catholic if we're islamic? Islam loves the differences, anyway. And all i know, Allah who's one that made the differences. How could be we forbid it-to be nice to people?

Peace, bro.

2011-12-11T01:44:00.000-08:00

He don't even ask me if i have ate or not. He don't even take a look a bit to my room and ask how's my condition. He don't even know i haven't ate anything since morning. He don't even know... He don't even ask...

WHAT'S SO WRONG WITH US, DAD?! I REALLY DON'T RECOGNIZE THIS SITUATION. U never be so cold like this, before. U never. U always asked me something. U always care of ur daughter. So why you're changed in just one day? I've done something wrong? OR WHAT? TALK TO ME! We got nothing if you're still being like a doll. TELL ME!

Going to run out of this world. Faster.

it's always my fault, isn't it?

What's wrong?

2011-12-06T04:31:00.000-08:00

Apa salahnya menjadi benar? Apa salahnya saya berusaha belajar mati-matian sampai minum kopi berharap mata saya terbuka lebar dan pelajarannya masuk ke otak? Apa yang salah jika saya sudah mentok di batas kesabaran dan kepuasan terhadap apa yang ada? Apa yang salah jika saya sudah merasa cukup berusaha, berdo'a, dan jujur. Ya, cukup jujur.

Tapi mana hasilnya? Mana yang saya harapkan? Apa yang terjadi? Apa yang saya dapat?

Ketidakpuasaan atas angka yang saya dapat. Kekesalan terhadap oknum-oknum yang tidak bertanggung jawab dan mungkin tidak pernah diajarkan untuk berlaku jujur sejauh umurnya. Apa yang salah untuk menjadi manusia jujur? Saya sudah jujur, saya sudah merasa amat jujur. Anda boleh menilainya jika melihat keadaan di sekitar saya, apakah saya termasuk jujur atau tidak. Tapi mana keadilan? Banyak mulut bilang "Berbuat baik pasti akan dapat balasannya, berbuat jahat pasti juga akan dapat balasannya" Tapi apa buktinya? Apa yang bisa membuat orang percaya akan hal itu? Jika sampai sekarang tetap mereka-mereka yang memenangkan 'game' ini. Sampai mereka lulus? Sukses? Berkeluarga?

Hidup oh hidup. Mengapa namamu hidup? Kenapa kehidupan selalu berbanding terbalik? Mengapa nyeri rasanya kalau melihat tampang-tampang palsu temanmu yang bahagia akan nilai mereka- yang mereka dapatkan secara 'cuma-cuma' tanpa harus minum kopi dan memaksa otak sampai berasap. Kenapa?? Kenapa?? Kenapa??!!

Oh life, this is what you really are. You are far beyond the human's expectations. You are mysterious, fucking unfair. You always make my day, but then you hurt me mentally. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? I'VE GIVEN EVERYTHING!

Goddest! What's wrong with me too?

I think everything has perfectly gone wrong.

I can't imagine how'll life without any cigarettes live in it. Fuh

2011-11-22T02:25:00.000-08:00

Hello you. Mr.stalker. A new comer in my life. A weird stranger who has been there around me in this couple of week. The tallest mister i've ever known. Really, you kindda cute.

With the sweet little things-like a bit attention but have changed into a lot, like one day with messages, like a called in the middle of night. Probably it's just a simply things-but it's so meaningful if 'you', are the man who did it all. If you, are the man behind the mask who probably wait for a turn to play a scene on a stage.

You must think that i'm expecting too much. But this is how i feel. I can't wait to meet and put off his mask. I love suprise.

I love our short/long conversation. I don't get any bored while i'm replying your message. I wait your name on my screen handphone either it's a call or a simply text. You really, made my each of day. Thank you. It's so nice to know u. (◠‿◠)

can i know u any closer?

2011-11-14T04:02:00.000-08:00

Yes, i will.

2011-11-10T07:28:00.000-08:00

Yang menyedihkan itu ketika kamu merasa seperti bukan dirimu. Merasakan dunia begitu kejamnya terhadapmu. Mengipas hawa panas dan meniupkan bara nya. Dan berfikir kalau 'tak ada dunia jika tak ada cinta'. Kalau begitu, saya tidak menemukan dunia saya.

Saya tidak mengerti akan arti cinta itu sendiri. Tidak akan ada yang bisa menjelaskannya. Saya hanya merasa terperangkap dalam sebuah keterpaksaan yang salah. Tidak seharusnya saya melakukan ini - mencoba menemukan mainan lain untuk melupakan mainan lama yang telah dibawa pergi tukang loak. Saya mencoba berpura-pura untuk menyukai mainan ini. Namun lama kelamaan saya sadar saya tidak ada hati dengan benda ini.

Terlalu setan jika saya menyebutnya mainan. Bilanglah ia adalah benda yang penting. Sangat penting keberadaannya. Saya hanya berpura-pura mengatakan menyukainya karena berbagai alasan yang tidak logis. Saya tidak ingin mengecewakan banyaknya perasaan yang mendukung saya untuk melihat diri saya yang lebih baik. Tapi kenyataan selalu berbanding terbalik. Saya tidak lebih baik. Saya stuck.

Lebih baik kah diri ini jika berjalan mengikuti alur kehidupan tanpa cinta? Tak tahu. Saya tak berani bilang saya mampu/lebih baik, tapi tak juga sebaliknya. Ini salah satu alasan mengapa saya mengetik post ini. Saya(lagi-kagi)merasa hampa, kosong, hitam, tak berbentuk apalagi bercorak. Saya merasa seperti karton hitam di tengah jalan. Saya tak menemukan apa arti sesungguhnya dari kehidupan. Saya tak mengerti kenapa cinta menjadi satu andil besar untuk hidup ini - padahal jantung berdenyut tanpa cinta, paru-paru bernafas tanpa cinta, dan otak berfikir bukan karena sokongan energi dari cinta (jika dilihat dari kenyataan logis).

Ya. Lagi-lagi misteri. Tak ada akhir, tak ada jawaban. Itulah kehidupan. Penuh akan misteri dan keanehan yang tak bisa dijelaskan oleh albert einstein ke 2 sekalipun. Karena Tuhan selalu punya rencana atas berbagai kejanggalan yang terjadi. Manusia tidak akan pernah sekalipun mencapai batas fikiran Tuhan. Tidak akan pernah.

Jadi, apa cinta itu penting?

My only relief is to sleep ;

When i'm sleeping,

i'm not sad,

i'm not angry,

i'm not lonely,

cause i'm nothing.

The stuff

2011-10-31T05:16:00.000-07:00

Earth is such a... miracle. And so does the human living.

Gw lagi ngerasain hal-hal ajaib. Dari nemu buku Doraemon yang tertulis di cover depannya "2001, belongs to Oktyra Indirasari", ngeliat foto-foto jaman dulu gw-dari yang gw putih, jadi item, sekarang putih lagi. Dari yang rambut gw keriting, lurus, sekarang gelombang. Dari gw gatau hal-hal 'aneh' skrng malah udh biasa ngelakuinnya. Oh life, why you have to suprise me with your fast-way?

Aneh aja. Kalo dipikir-pikir, udah berbelas tahun gw lewatin sampe gw skrng ada disini. Punya blog ini, jd blogger sejati, atau punya banyak hal yang tadinya ga kepikiran bakal punya. Aneh. Susah nge deskripsiin anehnya. But have you ever think that life is more than just you played, loved, chilled, sang, fell, felt, ate, breath, built, wished on it?

Lo ngerasa waktu lama geraknya? Pikir lagi deh. Inget-inget masa dulu lo. 10-15 tahun yang lalu lo kayak apa, dan bandingin sama skrng lo kayak gimana.

Jangan sia-siain waktu dan hidup which is for only once of forever. Taking many risks and living your life with many useful things are more important and fun. Keep it that on the right way.

Ps : Kepala gw ngebul nih, kerasa banget hidup keras sebagai anak kelas 12/ 3 SMA nya. WML ya. BTW Happy Halloween! Trick or treat!

Nothing is more painful, than realizing he meant everything to you, and you meant nothing to him. At all.

2011-10-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

11:06 here. I'm waiting, looking, and feeling for nothing.

I don't know how i supposed to act or express this thing but exactly i know that i'm no longer in a pain.

Pain finally disappeared. And somehow pain had taught me something important.

"That the thing you always judge as the most right nor the most wrong isn't always that same with other people's perspectives."

And a kind of statement : That you who i always believe are the most adorable person i've ever met is kind of... TETOT! Huge mistake. Totally wrong, let me correct it.

In my so-far-age, i've done, seen, felt, learned everything that the world has provided us frequently and considerably. I do love my life, and i must being grateful for what i have & had. But human isn't that perfect to be proud of what they had 'til they die. I'm human, so what's wrong of being ego?

"Why does nothing ever turn out like it should?"

Yeah i know, the most random post, but somehow it works. Ciao, goodbye, senorita, oyasuminasai.

Anyone can give up, is the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

A rapid hello

2011-09-28T19:02:00.000-07:00

Well, hello there. It has been so long not make a new post or do something for this blog. Well then, i had passed my tests. My middle term tests. They sucked me again & again with so many sections in each subjects. I've already known the score and... i grateful for this progress. My score isn't as bad as i taught before. Alhamdulillah, my hard work has paid off. Thanks Allah, thanks for much joys and happiness of everything that you've given me.

So.. what's the matter now? Oh yeah, i don't have many time for the things that you usually called "galau". My session has passed, and now i already revolt. There are so many things i must clearly think and keep it away from things which just make some lil dirty that possible to destroy everything just in one hit. Love isn't everything then. Love cannot make you richer, love cannot make you get the ticket for entering the "heaven", love cannot make you get the good score, and etc.

Loving myself, my family, my friends, stranger around, the poor, kids, animals, plants, the world, and the most powerful "Allah" is just more than enough.

Thing that i only think for nowadays is ; i wanna be a successful person. I'm on my third year of senior high, i'll graduate with the good score, i'll enter the gate of University of Indonesia, and go ahead to FISIPOL building. And then i'll graduate from there, find a job with a high salary, and make much money for my family and my soon 'family'.

Catch ya later. Thanks for coming and reading :'')

"Will.... you do the same? Kind of.. heart me back?"

How dare i

2011-09-05T23:01:00.000-07:00

I want to do some practically funny video for this blog.. But this is the result. A cover of Takkan terganti by Kahitna from me-myself-hell yeah. I'm not that good for being a singer but.. i just want to share my voice for this nowadays. I hope you'll get a kind of enjoy while you're watching this. I'm an amateur, and pardon me ;) So just watch! PS : There's a kind of mistake at the end when i tried to make an improvisation, my fool -_-")

I feel a bit proud of myself-did a thing which could make ashamed my own self. Tadaa! Bye!

I guess i will upload more videos after this one. Sounds great? Just for my own funny.

Ied Mubarak

2011-09-01T22:15:00.000-07:00

I'm so glad to know that we're all islam and celebrate the moment-once in a year.

HAPPY IED MUBARAK 1432H

MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIDZIN

MOHON MAAF LAHIR & BATIN ;)

Being so in love with a loser = Painful.

2011-08-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

What is this? What the hell is happening?

How can i be so in love with a loser who always made me mad just at one attack? How can i be so easily more weak than usual if i face his present, face, appearance, either his word or eyes or all the things that related to him? Why this questions always came up in every single time i clearly and definitely wish that.... "time, please turn yourself back" ?

This is just a part of a bullshit that i usually made. This is just a bit of tons of tears which couldn't control itself anymore because no barrier left. This is just... a rubbish. Nothing more.

Oh God, can i live in a different paths where the things are so different? If i could, i prefer for have no heart, or no feelings at all. If i could, i prefer for know nothing about love or its friends. And the best, if i could, i prefer for not know about.... YOU. At all.

You are really a hollyshit motherfucker ever. I gave a shit of everything that happened. You hurt me with many deceitfulness. Oh YEAH THANKS for your "kindness" that i don't even need. and SORRY for my imperfect.

So... Just, vanish, 'umh? Oh maybe it's better if myself vanish. It's not you who need to be vanished, but me.

'THIS' is make everything that complicated become simple...

Thanks for reading, or just looking around. Appreciate it so much. Thanks for more, if you put a little attention to this. Feel the same?

Never work.

These men are fckin'...

2011-08-15T20:33:00.000-07:00

1) Adam Noah Levine.

2) Jude Law

3) Lee Junho 2pm

Lots of fans, tons of luck.

They're cool in a different kind of view.

They've reached the dream that they had taught before.

No more word left to said but : " THESE GUYS ARE FUCKING HANDSOME! "

Another Award

2011-08-06T15:21:00.000-07:00

Assalammualaikum... How's going everyone? Happy Ramadhan and this is the very first post in the ramadhan from me. Do you fasting today? I hope we can succeed fast.

So & so... I got an Award from a lovely girl named Aya Mouri. Thank you so much for it, remembere that i rarely get some award in these nowadays.

I'll give this amazing award to those who have such a blog which full of inspiration, here they are ;

1 . Janrika Mutyarani

2 . Amira Inshoofarizqy

3 . Dyah Diwasasri

4 . Mochamad Rivan Harits

5 . Fatharani Fahira

It's a pleasure to know about fellow bloggers as well ;) Ciao!

Happy 17th Birthday, Shal!

2011-07-29T14:56:00.000-07:00

July 29th, 2011, our friend named Shalini or we called her Sasa had a birthday suprise for her 17. We (Astroboy) just bought the cake and made a cardboard then we just came to her house, knocked her room and VOILA! Suprise!

The Birthday girl!

*We just made her body full of fishy eggs and flours. Then she took a bath for a moment.*

Happy birthday shal! Happy birthday! Wishing of everything that the best of all! xoxo.

Friend is something different. My second world.

I'm on my third.

2011-07-15T18:40:00.000-07:00

My third year in senior high have begun 2 week ago. Damn, it's my third, & that's mean soon i'll gonna graduate and face the college's problem. But before i graduate, i've to pass those-hollyshit-tests. Many tests from the environment, either UN, US, SNMPTN, OR SIMAK UI.

So all of you must have known this college so well. Yup, that's University of Indonesia. A big college with many chances to reach our dreams. Everyone wants get there with all of the possibility. And so do i, i want this crazy college (crazy, means that the passing grade is..... too too too high :' | )

Just wish for the best of all.

And yeah, maybe for next i will rarely write down a new post, because i'm in my highest focus rate ever with the subjects in my school. Not mean that i will not post something anymore, but just in a long frequency time.

So.. & so, it's great to catch u up with the good condition in next ;) Good bye.

Words and pictures dance together.

2011-07-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

and the last...

;'')

When the world knocked us down

2011-07-04T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hai. Hari ini pake bahasa indonesia ya.

Hallo fellas. How's your holiday so far? Gw harap liburan lo bener2 adalah liburan yg lo ekspektasikan dari jauh2 minggu bahkan bulan sebelumnya. Gw harap kalian enjoy dengan liburan kalian yg apa adanya-atau bahkan benar2 liburan yg diimpikan oleh hampir setiap orang. Ke luar negeri, misalnya. Atau gak usah keluar negeri. Ke Raja Ampat, atau ke Tidung, atau.... Bali, pokoknya pergi ke suatu tempat yg indah. Yap, gw ke Bali seminggu kemarin. Study tour bareng 28 2012. Full perjalanan darat, dr pergi ; Jakarta-Jogja-Bali, dan pulang ; Bali-Jakarta. Gausah ditanya pantat gw kayak apa rasanya. Udah kayak kerupuk kulit kering.

But i enjoyed some of the whole parts. Ada beberapa tmpt2 yg gw suka bgt disana. Ada beberapa bagian gw sm tmn2 gw bener2 dpt quality dan seru2an nya disana.Yeah, that was my first time in Bali. Ada yg gw enjoyin dan ada jg yg bikin gw bete nya pake gila2an. Yah, mau gmn lg, yg ptg dpt sekitar 70% hv fun disana. Gimana dengan kalian semua? Dapet feel holiday nya gak sejauh seminggu ini? Mudah2an iya ya.

Tapi, yg namanya liburan gak jauh2 sama yg namanya 'sekolah lagi'. Tgl 11 sekolah gw udh masuk. Dan... That's mean gw udh jadi anak kelas 12. Tahun dimana itu tahun yg hrs bener2 serius. Ga ada main2 lg, ga ada ngalong2an lg, ga ada setiap satnite selalu keluar. Ga ada yg namanya ga perhatiin guru, nyindir2 guru lg. Karena.. gw bersaing sama ribuan orang di luar sana untuk masuk UI. Ga usah jauh2, gw bersaing sama temen&sahabat gw sendiri. Ini masa depan. Ga ada kata 'tolerir' lg. Bener2 harus jelas masa depan gw, bakalan jd apa.

Harus bisa kuat dgn apa yg udah dan bakal terjadi. Gw harus bisa kuatin mental-fisik gw untuk ngasih yg terbaik buat keluarga. Bokap nyokap gw udh ngeluarin keringet darah untuk bisa nyekolahin gw sampe skrng. Gw harus tau diri. Gw harus bisa bikin kerja keras mereka worth. Udah bukan saatnya ngeluh gara2 mslh yg sepele. Selama ini gw sadar gw terlalu berkutat sm 1 mslh yg judulnya 'pertemanan'. Terlalu byk drama yg udh gw alamin sejauh 17thn ini. Dan semuanya bikin gw ambil 1 kesimpulan, kalo temen bukanlah segalanya. Oke mereka adalah orang yg bisa bkn dunia lo berwarna, tp disaat yg bersamaan mereka juga bs bikin dunia lo hancur dan gelap. Sama kayak cinta. Skrng gw gamau haus akan temen. Gw gamau terlalu terpatok harus punya banyak temen di sana-sini. Cause finally gw dapetin dan bnr2 bisa milah-milih mana yg seharusnya gw jadiin temen... & sahabat. Atau bahkan ga 2 2 nya.

Kelas 12. Kelas baru, dan wajah2 baru. Juga.. Teman2 baru. Ya, Astroboy bakalan kepisah pisah sekarang. Ga bisa 1 kelas lg. Ga bisa becanda2 bareng tiap 5 hari dr jam set.7 sampe jam 2/set.4 lg. Ga bisa main kasti bareng lg. Eeets........................ Tapi tunggu. Kata siapa ga bisa lg?!! Walaupun kita kepencar2 ataupun gimana, Astroboy ttp Astroboy. Kita bisa lakuin itu semua even kita ga sekelas lg. Kita bisa bljr bareng lg. Apa sih artinya beda kelas? Ga ngaruh kok. Gw tetep paling suka Astroboy yg jadi anak kelasan 11 gw di 28. Gw ttp cinta mati sama Astroboy. Kita udh ngelewatin segalanya bareng2. Dan gak sekelas lagi bkn berarti kebersamaan kita juga gak lagi kan. Sedih sih, suasana pasti gak kayak setahun kemarin, yg bnr2 bikin gw semangat ke sekolah tiap hari. Alasan gw untuk rajin belajar & bisa strong enough sm pelajaran. Makasih abis Astroboy, parah. Aduh sumpah jadi sedih loh ini....

Yeah.. Wish this is the very best and last of everything..

Thanks for the memories and the joy you've brought into my life. The sickest, craziest, coolest, fool classmates ever. I really love you guys. Sorry for the mistakes i may have done. Thousand thanks will never worth with everything that we passed together. Sign out, bye.

When words couldn't enough describe everything that was happening, when tears couldn't enough make you realize how precious something is.

Happy Birthday Jekardah!

2011-06-22T19:00:00.000-07:00

484 years old isn't that young anymore. Our 'Jakarta' is no longer green, healthy, but you can get everything that you want & need in every 1 road in this city, named Jakarta. Happy birthday!

Pick one up for your lifestyle-either you pick the health life one or the night life one. Jakarta provided many kind of entertainments that make your life happier, even sadder.

But life is hard and it'll always. Mob rule mode is on. The strong survive. The rich is being richer, and the poor is being poorer. Jakarta is not change, but we do. People have changed Jakarta as one of their dream city, and not thinking about the condition of Jakarta itself. Jakarta is still Jakarta. However the sex and the criminality could poison us easily, however Jakarta is one of many examples that make us wanna say 'life's so unfair', but i do love Jakarta, even i do hate it too. Happy birthday Jakarta!

So lovely. Even with the pollution.

Be nice, Jekardah!

Hmm...

2011-06-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

For God's sake i don't have any idea what thing i've to discuss or share. Fucked up, blank. Everything around. You, her, him, them, us, everyone. Fuck mother ass-hole, what shud i do then?

And,

I miss being missed.

I miss being hugged and needed every single day.

I miss being the one who could show the new world.

I miss being the unpredictable one and then you try hard to hold me on.

That's all.

A-S-T-R-O-B-O-Y

2011-06-10T19:16:00.000-07:00

Got Astroboy as my classmate for 1-not-enough-year. It was the very best thing ever happened to me,coz i never imagine about how cool this class. I've been through all of random things with them. Never feel enough!

Buka puasa bersama

Chester

In class

TWT's birthday

Dufan

Bandoeng-braga

In a middle of smthng

Kota tua-ancol

Last but not least......

We're not understand about what is differences. We're just understand about how being together, how get this life crazier & funnier. We're not accept all of those levels which people may judge. We r who we r. Like or dislike, love or hatred, we're just ASTROBOY!

No words can define how precious you are guys. 20years later, if we met each other, don't ever forget what we had been through.

Two describe everything.

2011-06-05T18:44:00.000-07:00

Rini - Youjudge tumblr

I'm in pieces. And i know you don't even think 'bout it. Wish that you could be the guy who girls searching for, later on. Just the best for all. PS;i don't hate you at all. But disappointed is the clearest word.

Cheer up ty!

2011-05-30T15:49:00.000-07:00

First time, i felt this so much.

But then not. After i knew about your real self, and those mask. So far you just really into your mask. Your whole life is just depend on something called 'fake'. And.. i really don't like it. So on, this is my best and final decision. We really need being separated. We really need to walk alone in our own way. We need...off this way.

Ended in June 30th 2011. Thanks for being so adorable in those 3 month. Believe me, there's so many reasons why i can't continue the relation much longer. You know, it's not all your fault but somehow, you couldn't take over your own insanity. You must really understand what i'm talking about, indra. We just considered and offered many chance and the possibilities-to keep this relation. But still, somehow you said, "i couldn't change". And that was why i just closed this relation. There's no sense for me of keeping these things much longer.

All the words needed to get out are 'sorry' and 'thank you'. It's really necessary. It already describes all i need to say. That's all. Twice, thank you Indra Hanidinata. ;''''')

I'm single & free all the way! It's not that bad at all, is it? ;') Cheer up oktyra!

The perfect isn't must the best for us. But the best must be the perfect of all.

Happy birthday all the way, Madame Watty Indrawan!

2011-05-28T19:01:00.000-07:00

One of our quality moments

With the flowers which i gave her for her birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU MUCH!

She's the most beautiful woman i've ever met. She's my superwoman. Call her 'an angel who God sent from heaven.'

Before.

2011-05-27T07:27:00.000-07:00

Luck luck luck!

2011-05-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

For the formative test! TQ! Will be in another spaces for several days. Sign out!

Tai

2011-05-19T04:25:00.000-07:00

Gw cuman minta kejelasan dr lo. Ke-je-la-san. Apa kurang jelas? Gw cuman butuh sesuatu yg pasti dan gak gantung2 kayak gini. Topeng asu lo, monyet. Sadar diri blay. Topeng lo udh retak, bentar lg mau rubuh.

Di saat apa yg lo mauin ga kedapetan & lo jadi males sm sesuatu itu, itu yg dipanggil EGOIS. Egois itu sifat manusiawi manusia yg kegilaan 'nafsu' dan ga mencoba untuk ngontrolnya. HEY, Allah ciptain kita semua dengan otak as the remote control. But somehow it'll never work if you don't turn it on. Otak lo mati, gamau ngontrol keegoisan lo. Terkadang kelemahan kita tuh kita sendiri yang bikin. Sama kayak kasus lo.

Temen aja bisa lo sapa, gw? Hey, gw lo anggep apa sih? Kutu kecil yg jadi parasit di setiap kehidupan lo sm dunia lo? Kalo gt, kenapa lo tembak gw?! Kenapa lo jadiin gw org yg ada di kehidupan lo?! Apa urusan lo sama gw?! Sampah. 4 bulan lo nunggu gw, bilangnya bakal nunggu gw terus sampe kapanpun, gabisa move on, ternyata sampah, bullshit. Gak ada artinya semua omongan lo. Gw jadi kyk gini gara2 lo mengeluarkan byk statement yg bikin gw yakin bgt sama lo.

Tapi ujung2nya statement lo ga ada hasilnya. 'Setan' dalam diri lo terlalu besar, dan sama sekali ga ada usaha untuk ngontrolnya. Kalo gn caranya, gw nyesel nerima lo. Sumpah, bener2 nyesel.

Ga ada cowok yg se-tai ini. Lebih mentingin nafsu & egonya dibandingin sama apa yg udh byk berkorban buat lo. Buka mata, buka hati, buka TOPENG lo. Publik udh cukup dibohongin dengan 1 kepribadian lo yg baik2. Thanks. Inget omongan gw.

I know it's called karma. But this heart has its own feeling as like the others.

We...

2011-05-15T04:20:00.000-07:00

I never knew what perfection til

I heard you speak, and now it kills me

Just to hear you say the simple things

Now waking up is hard to do

And sleeping is impossible too

Everything is reminding me of you

What can i do?

It's not right, not OK

Say the words that you say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, i'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

It's better that we break

A fool to let you slip away

I chase you just to hear you say

You're scared and that you think that i'm insane

The city look so nice from here

Pity i can't see it clearly

While you're standing there, it disappear

It disappear

It's not right, not OK

Say the words it shpuld say

Maybe we're better off this way?

I'm not fine, i'm in pain

It's harder everyday

Maybe we're better off this way?

It's better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone

You're fragile and you're cold, but that's all right

Life these days it's getting rough

They've knocked you down, and beated you up

But it's just a rollercoaster anyway..

I really..miss the old you. The old, The old, and The old.

Hanidinata's failed birthday

2011-04-29T18:49:00.000-07:00

U know how suck its feel when u know that ur special-once-in-ur-life-moment was not worked like what u predicted? I felt it. And the worst, i failed to make a suprise for my boyfriend. It was sick & suck. I just prepared everything. The cake, gifts, and his whole friends in senior high school but the reality made me screw up.

It was suck. But then on monday we finally met and actually we had some miscommunication & misunderstanding of each other, so the suprise failed for sure. I just gave the gifts with his crew came over to eat the cake in my class. (no camera that day T_-T, so we took with tisa's bb)

But for the rest i so thanked you guys who just being tired on that friday. Thanks for waiting, and supporting me with 'sabar ya ty'. Hahaha damn it's funny to think about that failed moment again. Gaah!

The point is Happy birthday to you Monsieur Indra Hanidinata. I just hope for the best for your entire life. For everything that you've worked on, for everything that you've lived for. Nothing important beside saying this 'bored words'.. I love you. Every inch of you, every cm of ur tall, every bad/good things on you. I accept all the way you are. Thanks for being kind all the time. Thanks for understand my confuse, and complete each day which i passed. Thank...you.

Happy birthday, my kancut ranger!

Happy 2nd Anniversary indra♥

2011-04-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

I've nothing to say... Because our 2months wasn't so like i expected before. I felt how strange you are in this nowadays. But we just have taken control of everything. And now i realize, how useful&success this relation if we trust each other 'more' and 'more'. If we keep this open-minded of every little things. If we more honest in every single confess. I think we could pass even a storm ahead. No, no we could. But we should.

Happy Anniversary 2months Indra Hanidinata. Wishing of the very best of luck for our believe. Keep it up, make it last, no matter what happen. But the truth is, i guess, it's my own. I'll keep survive for what i've felt. I don't care about the others. I just care for what i seen through this 2 months&finally knew the answer.

That i really love you. I don't even wanna miss a thing. I want you beside me, hold me, and keep me in every dark & light. So show me up, what is the best for us. I've learned it all from you, so i gotta change now. Will you do the same? Let your-own-self know the answer.

Have you ever feel like....no one needs you? I have, and it's like, i'm not deserve even in hell. It's so much pain..

Oh...dear ;'c

2011-04-24T07:01:00.000-07:00

Do you know how it feels? Hurt the most, pain on board..

i feel lose your old. I mean, the old us...

What i think vs what i feel

2011-04-22T17:59:00.000-07:00

The hardest fight ever. Right, when something that u think is the most right actually has a different fucking logic with what u feel. It's started and happened in any magic things around us. Fuck it, but that's the truth, the reality.

Hello blog. It's so nice to know that i can get my ass here after the really long time without some updates. But i tell ya', i'm in my perfectly-1-week-of-holiday. I just had a list things to-do. And yeah, G'luck for the senior 2011 who just did the National examination. May God bless u all & give the best results for all of u guys. You just did ur best, i know it!

I do hate u. Fcking hate u now for many reasons. Gaah, can we just go over all of this shit?
I literally don't know what to do. It's not pure ur fault, the whole, but mine. I'm the mistake. Someone who make&change everything is just one person with no idea of how to make it better or to never make any wrong anymore. But everybody knows, that i'm perfectly imperfect. I never make something right in the way, or even just shut the mouth up and never do many-embarrassed-move. Just a clown who give itself to being laughed in everyone's faces. Just a trash who don't know what the others feels like. Just a jerk donkey who always do the wrong, being hated by people.
So what i supposed to do? Ask God to change me whatever it will be? Stuck in the middle of globalization? Wait until the death comes? Smoking 'til the lungs broken? Or... pretend that i never meet you before and we don't know each other so the condition will change into 180degrees?

Kita udh gede. Udh bisa nentuin jalannya sendiri. Bahasa kasarnya, cowok udh bisa ngehamilin cewe dan cewe udh bisa dihamilin sama cowo. Kita udh akil balik. Dan GW, dengan siap ngomong kalo bukan anak kecil lg. Gw udh gede dengan segala kelebihan & kekurangan gw.
Dan kita. It's not about me or you, but it's all about us. Aku minta maaf di 1 bulan lebih ini udh banyak ngebingungin km, bkn km kesel, dan lainnya. Tp aku minta, bkn aku yakin kalo kt bakal lama seperti yg kita harapkan. Aku yg salah. Aku penyebabnya. Mulut ku terlalu bocor untuk cerita ke orang dan bikin km namanya jd jelek. The point, aku minta maaf sm semua kekurangan aku yg bkn kita seminggu liburan ini bener2 renggang&jd kesel2an satu sm lain. Mau maafin apa enggak, itu terserah kamu. Aku cuman bisa blg itu.
Remember those?

:"")

Balik yuk.
Balik ke masa-masa PDKT kita dulu aja..
Kangen kamu pas yang itu ;')

do fun with astroboy!

2011-04-05T18:39:00.000-07:00

Guys! It's been a long time since the last post. Today i'm not goin' to school because i don't think today is an important day(even i know today is maulid celebration,but still) So now i wanna share many many photos ASTROBOY (Association of Social One Ready to Blast The Year Of 2012!). My very lovely classmates ever! We went to Dufan on Tuesday, March 22 2011. I was super duper mega giga tera extra perfectly absolutely happy and got my fun with them! I'm so in love with this autis class... I'll tell you part by part.

First ; Shelter busway, Ragunan.

Tempat janjian ketemuan kita di shelter busway, Ragunan. Pas gw nyampe sana udh rame.. Tinggal ipin, sama kia. Setelah ipin sama kia udh dateng, kita langsung capcus naik busway. Dan ga nyangkanya, kita ketemuan juga sama ipa4 di manggarai-yg notabene nya ipa4 juga ke dufan hari itu.

...Tengah jalan di Kampung Melayu...

Ipin ditelfon orang dr tempat penitipan motornya di Ragunan. Kata nya ipin salah naro motor. Krn ipin takut motor nya kenapa2, akhirnya ipin pake rencana gila, "Yaudah, gw balik lagi dulu ke ragunan, abis itu gw nyusul lo pada lg ke dufan sendiri, oke?!" Stress. Anak2 pada ngomong "Kalo gw jd ipin gw meningan balik drpd bolak balik ragunan-dufan gitu, ujung ke ujung bro!" Akhirnya kita berpisah sama ipin di Shelter Busway Kampung Melayu.

Second ; Finally, Dufan!

Akhirnya! Kita semua nyampe Ancol! Gilaa, pengen cepet2 masuk dufan dan nge-autis-gila-bareng2an. Kita langsung excited bgt pengen cepet2. Bayar masuk Ancol, dan langsung ke loket Dufan.

Third ; 1) Roller Coaster

Yes! Dufan sepiii! Bener2 berasa milik kita nampol. Gw sama Tama heboh langsung mau yg extreme2, tp anak2 maunya pemanasan dulu. Jadi akhirnya wahana pertama yg kt naikin adalah Roller Coaster mini menggelitik perut.

2) Kicir - Kicir

Nah,selesai dr roller coaster buat pemanasan,kita langsung lanjut ke part 'extreme2'. Dimulai dari kicir2, karena posisinya deket bgt kan sama roller coaster. Disini kita sepakat kalo semuanya harus naik, tapi apa daya, rini aura gak ikut karena mereka emg takut. But, buat permulaan, i was enjoying this so fucking much!

3) Hysteria

Lanjot! Udh puas diguncang sama kicir2, kita harus naik 'extreme2' selanjutnya. Tadinya udh gatahan kora2, eeh belom buka. Akhirnya kita ke hysteria. Walau ngantri, tapi ngantrinya cepet kok. Dan ini kali pertama bagi anak2 yg lain, makanya pada excited bgt! (Ipin masih dalam perjalanan ke ragunan)

4) Kora - Kora

Finally gaan! Wahana yg paling gw demenin, kora-kora. Tadinya pada males karna liat antriannya kayak lumayan panjang gt, tp gw kekehin kalo antriannya bakal cepet. Akhirnya pada mau juga karena emg excited juga sama kora-kora. Gw sama saban sama icha udh nge tag tempat paling enak di kora-kora, yaitu di paling ujung sebelah kiri. Rasanya? Menggelitik asu, mangstab! *tapi ga ada foto pas kt lg di kora2nya T_T

5) Pontang - Panting

Next destination, kita mau main yg biasa dulu aja. Tujuan utamanya sih halilintar, tp kita mau berurutan ; Pontang-panting, Ontang-anting, baru halilintar. Jadilah kita naik Pontang-panting dulu. Tadinya gw udh gamau ikut krn gw tau naik gituan bikin pusing, mual, terus sakit. Tapi krn semuanya pada naik, akhirnya gw ngekor aje dah.

Dan ini muka kita semua setelah naik wahana yg bener2 bikin jiper perut. *suer itu senyum pusing semua...

6) Halilintar

Setelah nenangin perut kita karena mual&pusing abis naik pontang-panting,kita siap naik halilintar. Ontang-anting dipending,nanti aja abis istirahat siang. Akhirnya kita ngantri lah di halilintar. Gw nge tag sama pidun paling belakang-krn emg posisi naik halilintar/roller coaster dimana aja tuh paling belakang, soalnya paling ketarik dan udh ga di rem-rem. Enak! Tapi di halilintar ini foto2nya dikiit bgt, soalnya hampir semuanya naik dan susah mau foto2innya..

7) Break-break-break

Hueh... Pas itu capeknya pake celer! Kita mutusin buat istirahat dulu. Makan siang sholat dan segala macemnya. Akhirnya kita semua makan di Mcd.. Dan yg bikin kita semangat.. IPIN udh sampe di dufan & dia tiba2 langsung jengjengjeng muncul di Mcd dgn muka capeknya! Kita semua langsung salut bgt sama ipin. Gila, bela2in ragunan-kmpng melayu-ragunan-kmpng melayu-dufan. Kita cinta bgt dah sama bang ipin.. Apalagi dia ulang tahun!

Ini dia....Bung Ipin affan!

8)Ga-garudaan

Perut kenyang, kaki udh enak, perut udh ga mual, kita siap lanjut. Tapi karena saban kido ipin masih mau ngerokok, akhirnya gw tama amel fira (fira anak ipa4 yg ketemu ga sengaja) naik garuda. Ga ada foto sih, soalnya yg lain pada masih mager2an di Mcd. Nah akhirnya ipin selesai ngerokok dan dia mau naik garuda. Anak2 sepakat untuk menghargai ipin yg udh capek2, ipin boleh nentuin wahana apa aja yg pgn dia naikin. Kita bakal ngekor. Nah akhirnya gw amel tama ipin saban kido naik garuda lagi. Nah yg ga ikut garuda, pada foto2.

9)Ontang - Anting

Selesai dengan garuda2an, ipin lanjut mau ontang-anting. Sekalian ngadem, kata anak2 juga. Pas ontang-anting ini banyak yg ga ikut, kyk gw kido edy, amel sasa. Soalnya kita takut enek sm muntah. Disini banyak dapetin foto2 bagus yg ga di planning gitu!

We love this unplanning picture very much!

10) Isnabon a.k.a Istana boneka

Puas diputer-puter, kita lanjut. Yg cewek2 pada mau bgt ke istana boneka, pada mau ngadem. Yang cowok juga iya2 aja. Jadi akhirnya kita ke istana boneka. Pas ngantri lumayan banyak bocah dan a?lay. Rada males sebenernya awal2nya, tapi ttp dibawa have fun. Dan kerennya boat yg kita naikin pas buat cowok 1 cewek 1. Pas kita mau masuk terowongan di istana boneka nya kita HEBOH bgt! Foto2, sampe berdiri2 di boat nya & sempet ditegor sama mas2 nya wkwkw! Intinya, masuk istana boneka cuman buat ngadem, foto2, autis2an!

11) Rumah cermin

Disini ga ada foto, karena kita udh pusing sama heboh duluan masuk rumah cermin. Gw kia babon sama ipin diboong-boongin orang kalo jalannya kesini kesini, taunya buntu. Celer-_- Yang lain udh pada keluar, gw kia ipin masih di dalem lumayan lama, akhirnya berhasil juga sih. Terus si ipin minta difotoin disini gr2 ngeliat kia foto.

12) Niagara

Kita kira awalnya niagara bakal sepi celer. Taunya! Salah banget bangetan kita milih niagara. Ngantrinya ga nahan! Panas, sumpek lagi. Padahal kalo kita gak ngantri niagara kita bisa naik 1-2 wahana yg lain yg lebih seru. Tapi dengan kesabaran dan pada ngekocak semua, kita jadi deh naik niagara. Maunya yg basah sekalian tadinya, arung jeram. Eh arung jeramnya lg dalam perbaikan-_-. (Disini juga ketemu sebagian anak ipa4)

13) Tornado

Baju udh setengah basah setengah kering, kita nanya lg ipin mau main wahana apa. Akhirnya jatuh pilihan ke Tornado. Pas lagi lewatin tornado, pas banget lg ada 7w main tornado(means ada cowok gw, indra). Mereka lucu bgt mukanya haha. Sayang, astroboy yg naik cuman gw saban ipin sasa kia edy ben, kalo ga salah. Yang lain pada takut muntah wwkwk!

14) Kora - Kora ; Astroboy vs 7w/ipa4

Puas? Belom! Tornado nya belom puas sebenernya. Kurang, harusnya 2x sih haha. Tp krn wktnya udh tgl bntr lg, dan kasian ipin masih mau main wahana lain. Akhirnya kita ke kora2 krn ipin belum naik itu. Eh taunya ketemu lg sama 7w + fira. Akhirnya astroboy ngajak battle kora2. Dan absolutely, yg terheboh ttp astroboy! (Gw sm icha saban ttp, di ujung sebelah kiri) Foto2nya gak ada, cuman ada beberapa sebelum naik kora2.

15) Hysteria ; Happy birthday ipin!

Disini nih kita ngerasa beruntung bgt. Jadi ceritanya, ipin tuh belum pernah nyoba hysteria dan pengen bgt nyoba. Akhirnya abis kora2 selesai, kita ke hysteria. Pas sampe di hysteria, petugasnya ngomong, "Maaf dek udh tutup maaf ya". Yaampun, kita kasian bgt sama ipin. Akhirnya kita nge lobi-lobi dengan alesan "Pak sekali aja pak, kita terakhir pak, kasian ini ada yg ulang tahun mau nyobain hysteria pak..!" Beberapa lama petugasnya mikir, akhirnya diBOLEHIN! Kita dikasih masuk dan jd yg terakhir. Tp pas kita semua masuk, mas2nya cuman ngebolehin 1 hysteria yg dimainin, means cuman 10 org yg main. Yaudah akhirnya yg naik ipin saban kido...gw lupa siapa lg. Pas ipin duduk, yg ga naik dr bawah nyanyi "Happy birthday ipin happy birthday ipin". Pas bgt si ipinnya lg tepok tangan seneng2, eh langsung dihempasin hysterianya! So ipin kaget bgt ga ngira kalo hysteria nya bakal kayak gitu haha...Tp semuanya seneng bangett!

Fourth ; Pantai Ancol.

Akhirnya dufan tutup dan kita semua keluar dari dufan. Eits! Tp ga langsung pulang. Soalnya....Kita mau ngerjain ipin! Kita emg udh sepakat dr awal, pas dufan tutup gamau langsung plg, soalnya bakal macet + rame bgt org kerja. Jadi kita mau mager2an di pantai, se-ka-li-gus ngerjain ipin. Kita mau nyeburin ipin ke pantainya. AND it was successed! Ipin bener2 nyebur dan basah sebasah basahnya. Ga lupa, pas ipin diceburin kita langsung nyanyi lagi, "Happy birthday ipin!"

Fifth ; Go home with :)

Selesai. Seharian bareng Astroboy nya selesai setelah kita udh pada cape dan enough banget. Kita akhirnya pulang naik busway bareng2 dan berpisah di shelter2. Gila, kita pergi, main, pulang semua nya bareng. Pokoknya hari itu bener2 hari kita banget. Cuaca nya mendung, tp ga ujan. Dari timing, tempat, semuanya pas banget. Astroboy gokil, gila, autis, imbisil! Makanya gw sayang bgt sama ini kelas. Mau bgt kelas 12 gausah dituker-tuker lagi. Gw udh cinta bgt sama ini kelas..

So, akhirnya! Selesai post kali ini. The longest post ever! Sebenernya masih banyak bgt cerita astroboy yg gabakal ada endingnya. But here the end. Thanks for the attention, and see ya!

Keep shining, keep smiling, knowing u can always count on me for sure, that's what friends are for....

Happy 1st Anniversary indra♥

2011-03-25T04:47:00.000-07:00

Have got no words to say, but this is what i'm really saying from this deeply heart..For now, you're really the beginning. We've started this from zero, and now increase, be 1(range 0-10).All i know is i do love you in other ways. Different, and it's more than before.

Happy 1st Anniversary. March 25th 2011, Indra Hanidinata.

Never though the time flies so fast..Keep it last, make sure the good things will always come and the bad stays away .Amin.

To be with you is all that i need..Cause with you, my life seems brighten, and these all are the things,I wanna say..

Another party

2011-03-22T21:16:00.000-07:00

L-a-s-t. Our last holiday is today. We've got our 6-fast-holiday in the middle of our reality-go to school. 1 week isn't so bad for 10th and 11st grade who got the holiday because the 12th have got their examination. 1 week... Yeah, it's too fast for us. We just need more,more&more holiday somehow-enjoying our world without any school's stuffs. But is a must to come back for our reality. Life goes on, Earth keeps fly around, and so we are.

Enough for the opening, now i wanna share some photos of Riskia Ramadhina's or called Babon's birthday day party-her sweet seventeen, at Wayan Cafe, Kemang. Now check it out ;)

Finally, happy birthday kia!

That was the night. It was very freakin' funny because of the celer2 yg bikin suasananya sama sekali ga kakoe! Terus yg ciwek cantik2 bgt, yg cowok dewasa2 bgt pakaiannya. However, thanks kih for ur party! One of many unforgettable things for us.

Yap, thousand thousand thanks for you guys who have visited my blog post by post. I deeply appreciate every attention that might you give. Every single critics and compliments are mostly the power of being stronger! *ga nyambung* Well, see ya around on next!

Life goes on,Earth keeps fly around,And so we are.

May i confess

2011-03-17T09:02:00.000-07:00

More confession.

I confess something now. Something that might be an usual feeling. Something that i bet you have felt it now or before.. Something amazing, probably no words can define/draw how big it is. Something with the most important unsure inside, and the best ever.

A thing that God created, for people. For people who believe that God created them for one reason. A reason that have no logic, no mind, no means, 'til they can find their own perspective by themselves.

I know you know. How easy to say this but hard to express and prove it to the world.

But let me tell you, our love isn't need that 'public attention'. All we need is just to be together, forever, and ever.

Mungkin udah bosen, dan udah terlalu biasa untuk dikatakan. Tapi tetap, 3 kata yang bisa ngejelasin semua yg gw rasain... I.LOVE.YOU.

There's 3 word for you...I love you.

Nen,Ten!

2011-03-16T17:14:00.000-07:00

Good morning, bonjour, & gutten morgen everyone! Today is wednesday, and the first holiday of seven days more. What a will great holiday if you just has planned it and got many to-do list. A beautiful seven-days in the middle of our school's fvck things...

And Good luck for our senior in high school, who will pass the first test, ujian sekolah. Much wish for you kakak-kakak! Smg dapet yg terbaik dan seimbang dgn usahanya! Dan semua nya masuk PTN yaa kak! Aminamin!!!

Right, we'll go ahead. Today i want to share/discuss about a manga/anime, one of many top shonen manga, EVER!

Hunterxhunter. Is a japanese manga series written and illustrated by Yoshiro Togashi. The story is about a young boy named Gon, who discovers that the father he had always been told was dead is in fact alive and well. He learns that his father, Ging, is a legendary "hunter", an individual who has proven himself/herself an elite number of humanity and specializes in finding rare creatures, secret treasure, and other individuals. Despite Ging having left his son with his relatives in order to pursue his own dreams, Gon becomes determined to follow his father's footsteps, pass the rigurous "Hunter Examination", and eventually find his father to become a hunter in his own right.

Gon

Killua

Kurapika

Leorio

What a rweally super mega giga tera duper big big cool manga ever! I just hv watched when i was on elementary. And never know how the ending was (or maybe it was not end up!) Gaah i love the characters! Gen ryodan, hyosoka, Zoldyeck's family, and etc!! Tp skrng yg byk di tv malah sinetron2 tai asu yg sm sekali ga ada bagus2nya. Celer, setiap pindah channel dan liat sinetron, pengen gw banting TV nya, seriously. Gila, dunia per-sinetron-an di Indonesia udh ancur, rusak. Semua alur dan scene di framenya bener2 bisa bikin otak kita terdoktrin.. Bahwa lo bisa sejahat yg ada di sinetron dgn segala kebusukannya atau bisa jd kebalikannya. Ya.. org dewasa sih bisa milah-milih mana yg bener,terus...

Apa kabar anak-anak yg masih dibawah umur?

Siapa yg bisa kasih jawaban logis? ;_)

Well then, this is the end of this post. Thanks for those kind of attention eventually who just looking around. Tya sign out, bye!!

Mari ucapkan selamat pagi,Bertemu dirimu lagi,Semoga hari ini, jadi hari yg indah - Ost. opening hunterxhunter

When you were born with a different..

2011-03-09T20:40:00.000-08:00

Inspiring. And freakin' out. That's the first word how i comment of this fvcking great movie. I had no imagine about the story before. I though this is just an usual movie with the love everywhere or many things about love. But i was wrong. The movie was.super.cool.

"I was born different." That was the beginning of 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,' adapted from a story by F. Scott Fitzgerald in 1920 about a man who was born in the eighties and he was walking backwards: not a single human being could stop time. Background of the city of New Orleans at the end of World War I in 1918, we follow the journey of life that are not experienced by everyone.

See how different the movie is? I love the flow of the stories. It have a common each other and natural. How hard the life when you were born as an old man. How weird the world starring at you with the unusual circumtancess that you got. Oh man, Brad Pitt so much handsome, and lovely..

I know it, i'm too late to share this kind of movie. Not a lie, i just watched it. But it's not the point. I love the movie very much, and that's the point. For you who don't watch it yet, just watch. How adorable the love is, and the cases. Tya sign out, thanks.

We fight the time back for some reasons.
It's funny to know we'll dead when we were a baby.
And born to be an old man.

Tell me this is the best

2011-03-04T16:52:00.000-08:00

On Februari 25th 2011... Suprising friday after the the bell rang. I never knew that u'll say that 'magic word' anyway.

I feel that u're so kind. I feel that my mind is keep thinking about you all time. U're name resound and und... Similar to a person who feel fall in love with the most suprising guy because i never think you admirer me since i had boyfriend (re: last boyfriend) And i'm happy about that ☺☺♥

The first time i feel so love you when you hugged me that saturday. I've felt some strong feelings that you really2 love me with all the bad and the good in mine. U're really the right enough guy!

Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra. Indra!!

I'll make it easier and no more wasting words. This is the point, i love you yangko.

25,25,25!
When the end of something have brought you to a more interesting one...
ever.

Taken by!!

2011-02-25T15:33:00.000-08:00

I'm offically taken by... You, Indra Hanidinata. Never imagine that it was happened. Thanks for all supports and wishes! I got my man because all of you! Thousand Thousand Thanks!

Gw...

2011-02-15T19:01:00.000-08:00

Hello guys. Selamat hari Maulid Nabi Muhammad SAW, 12 Rabiu Awal 1432, untuk seluruh umat muslim di dunia.

Hari libur di tengah2 the killer formative test, itu dewa bgt. Gilak, gw pengen bnr2 cpt2 ngelewatin 5 hari pembantaian-otak itu. Hidup damai kalo ga ada itu ulangan, suer deh. But however i judge that test, itu fakta kalo gw harus belajar dan ngelewatin itu semua, dan Insya Allah tanpa REMED. Amin.

'I want that scene'.
Gw mau di kehidupan-flat-datar gw, ada orang yg bisa bikin gw sampe bilang, "Gila, ini baru namanya hidup. Semua gara2 dia nih. Parah!". Fyi, gw udh pernah ngerasain itu pas gw pacaran sama... Kartika Satria Utama.

Yg namanya nekat ya nekat, ya nggak lek? Haha. Stress parah seru anying dan gila. Kalo gt gw bahas deh, gimana pertama kali pacaran sama dia, dan ngelewatin 1 tahun 4 bulan sama dia. Well, tighten ur sitbelt and check this out.

Kenalan pertama

Semua gara2 Ayodance. Tau permainan Game Online yg satu itu? Gw main itu udh kayak org sakaw. Gw bela-belain ga jajan di sekolah cuman karena duitnya gw pake buat main warnet pas pulang sekolah. Ya itulah hidup gamer, keras haha. Well, someday gw ketemu sama char di itu game yg nick nya gw lupa. Akhirnya gw seru-seru an main sama dia, dan terjadilah pertukaran Friendster( kelas 2 smp). Sampe ke pertukaran no handphone. Alay bgt ga sih gw haha LOL.

Di" jedor" nya

Ada sekitar 3/4 bulan ga ada contact sama sekali sm dia. Ya gw ngerasa itu biasa, toh cuman temen dunia maya. Belom ketemu lg, ga begitu penting. Tp someday lg dia contact gw lg. Dan gw beraniin diri buat telfon dia, siang2 pas abis sholat jum'at. "Anaknya seru ya", kata gw dalem hati. Akhirnya berlanjut terus. Dan... gw putus sama aka. Begitupun dia, putus sm pcrnya yg entah siapa. Dan tb2 dia sms dan nembak. Maklum msh kelas 2 smp, gw iya in aja dgn jawaban "hmm.. patut dicoba ;p".

1-4/5 bulan

Freak. Aneh. Kentang, bosen. Gila, gw pacaran sm org yg blm gw ketemu dan ga gw tau seluk beluknya. Yayaya, gw disitu mikir gw cuman hv fun doang kok sama ini org. Alhamdulillah ada yg support dan merhatiin. But, akhirnya gw gak tahan. Gw minta break. Karena si aka minta balikan. Tp, i decided untuk miilih dia. Dan akhirnya kita ketemuan. Disitu, gw makin sayang sm dia.

Unforgettable Moment

Banyak. Setiap kita ketemuan, itu jd hari yg goooood bgt. Dia pinter ngeposisiin dirinya, bgt. Pas lg jalan di jalan raya dia selalu mau yg jalan di ujung. Yg kayak gitu aja tuh udh cukup bkn gw speechless. Yg seru... pas kita naik busway ke kota tua, liat museum, ke monas tp gajadi. Tapi.. yg paling unforgettable banget bangetan adalah pas dia....

Bawa gw ke Pantai.
Pantai yg jarang bgt dijamah orang, yg sepi, yg masih putih pasirnya, ombaknya besar, yg ga ada sampah, yg penuh sama ranting pohon, anginnya kenceng, dan waw... sunset-wannabe-nya tetep keren. Lagi gak dapet sunset hari itu. Tp tetep, keren. Gw speechless. Gila! Baru kali itu gw pacaran sama cowok yg sampe sebegininya sama gw. Yg sampe berani nekat nempuh perjalanan 2 jam an naik motor cuman pengen ke pantai itu. Dan tadinya mau liat bukit bintang tp rame ;p. Akhirnya kita kita cuman ngeliat2 lampu taman, perpaduan coklat krem sama langitnya yg item tuh bagus bgt. Ditambah bunyi2an jangkrik. Waw.. i had my best day ever. Dan semuanya berhenti saat gw memutuskan untuk putus dan move on. Begitu juga dia. Tp.. ga segampang itu putusnya. Susah. Lama. Butuh waktu. Dia sama sekali gamau putus. neither did i. Tp... yg terbaik, adalah kita jalan sendiri-sendiri.

That's the whole story. That was us. And now we're just on our own. I miss you.

Hey lek, what's up?
Meet up doong! Kgn!

Right then...

2011-02-09T19:17:00.000-08:00

I'm officialy single now. Yeah, the fool-funny relationship stopped right yesterday, sunny Februari on 8th. He wanted we really really saying good bye in the day which was our anniversary for 4 month. Cried for finally.... 3 days. Have tried to stop it but well, it was hard. My mind and my brain had a strong fight each other and obviously made me insane of him. And sure, i scare if i regret something i did. I scare if i regret that is you who always make me go down the hill and found something important beside.. I scare if i regret that is you who always make me be my-really-self. This thing have ruined me so fast and.... i have no idea.
But.. i have this thing called 'move on'. With the straight face, sharp eyes, and wide smile, ready to struggle. Ready to fight the day by day. Ready to find many new things. And... Ready to find a new 'you'.

I don't wanna lie myself, if i need a boyfriend, who will support whatever and whoever i am. Who accept all things good or bad. Never looking any beautiful physic, but wanted the beautiful inside. And, the most things that woman ever want from a man- 'that they can really love her just the way she is'. I'm searching for a guy like that.
Now i'm not belong to someone. I just on my own. But this believing feeling have started to always say 'Soon you will meet your true him'. And i believe on it. Back from my 3-sadly-day, i've turned back my face and said 'I'm okay buddies! Thanks for the attentions! But i'm really okay. I just have forget it but will always remind it. Memory just lives in someone mind&heart, and i had that memories."

Sandiwarakah selama ini..
Setelah sekian lama kita, tlah bersama
Inikah akhir cerita cinta, yang selalu aku banggakan, di depan mereka
Entah dimana, kusembunyikan rasa...malu

Kini harus aku lewati...
Sepi hariku, tanpa dirimu lagi
Biarkan kini ku berdiri
Melawan waktu, tuk melupakanmu
Walau pedih hati..namun aku bertahan

Well, goodbye isn't always a word means that you'll never meet again with that someone, right?
Just start to believe that the good is ahead. ;")

FIN

2011-02-08T20:00:00.000-08:00

It's hurt.

It's really terrible. And... Hurt me. So.

Thanks for those 3 month or more that you gave to me. You know, you made me in love with you in the greatest ways... That i've ever walk on.

Thank you, thank you so much. Btw, Happy Anniversary for 4 month. Last.....anniv? ;'/ Damn right.

Ps : I love you. I love you very damn much. More than you ever know.

Officially single! ;p

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2011-02-03T06:38:00.000-08:00

Lemme say "Gong Xi Fat Choi!" For my all dearest friends who celebrate it. In hope that in this bunny year we can be a better human and have a good life for next! And... Bagi bagi angpao buat nonton java jazz bisa kali ;p

Gw pake bahasa indonesia dulu deh. Lagi gamau mikir pake bahasa inggris. So far... What's up guys?! How was your last day? Pasti kalian ada yg jawab dgn muka kotak yg lemes dan blg "ah ga ada yg menarik, sama aja" atau ada yg berbanding terbalik dan ngejawab "Thanks for yesterday!" . Jawaban umum semua manusia yg hidup di dunia, iya gak sih. Di satu sisi, ada manusia yg bahagia dgn apa yg sedang ia jalanin, tp di satu sisi ada manusia yg benci bgt sama kehidupannya yg flat-datar-ga ada sensasi. Haha, it's all about life, dude. Mening kita jalanin aja apa yg ada, dan gausah neko2 dulu. Toh keajaiban akan dtg dgn sendirinya. Ya iya sih harus ada usaha jg, but try to make it balance with your condition lah (Pagi-pagi udh ngomongon hal berat kayak ketela ayam-_-)

Ohyes! Gw mau upload foto pas lagi di ulang tahun Natria Rachma Utami. Di Bondies, kemarin januari. Monggo di liat yaa!

And.. With the birthday girl!

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Enough ya. Gw bingung mau ngetik apa lagi. Lagi ga ada bahan perbincangan apa apa nih... So, see u next on this blog, be my follower ya! Ntar gw follow balik. Jangan lupa kalo ada blog silahkan tinggalkan link nya di C-box yg warna nya merah item putih. So.... Happy sincia!

Today's song ; Sampai kapan - Maliq and d'essential

Happy Chinese/Lunar New Year 2562!

i'm going mad..

2011-01-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

Hell yeah. It's 11:08 PM here and i observe out that my 'saturday' was bad. So so.. bad. Bored, nothing to do, and there wasn't a better changes from him. Everything's still same and i'm really really bored about that. Supposed to be a day which one is a day for family/friends, but i spent it in my home, with my awkward feelings. Call me 'the monkey'. Ah forget it, i don't know about what i type here, so far. I don't have any discussion or something to share. Because my mind is full of this 'galau' mode, 'galau' season or whatever you named it. It has happened to me. And it goes on and on...
This relationship goin' me crazier. I don't have any words to say but this complicated drama just started. I just have been through 3 month or more with him and i have felt many abstract and unexplained feelings of heart and mind. i don't wanna have it or keep it for long, but i can't refuse it. Because heart talks the truth and so does the mind. I don't care about what people'll say but this is truly what i've felt. Oh God... Is it me who always never feel enough for what i've got or is it true that he isn't the best for me? I'm scared of being a girl who will regret something deeply and it'll hurt my-own-self. I'm scared of everything that will hurt somebody or anybody...

God, please make me stronger.

Moon-day

2011-01-17T04:01:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the several post that i typed it directly day by day... Have felt so need it, just like a drug. I can do nothing more except to express the feeling just by type something which is not a big prob for you, who'll never want to understand, or maybe don't care. It's not your fault anyway, i don't ask for your attention because i know we've already our own problems. It's kind of a big deal if you wanna take other's problems. Okay okay, sorry if it's hard to understand my words, for you who spend a time to take a look for some of mine.
The main problem is i feel nothing. I don't feel sad neither happy, i don't feel need somebody neither needed, or i don't feel angry neither good. And the most is i don't need you, and i'm sure you don't need me in other way. I don't know why, i don't have any reasons to explain it but swear i really hate to have those kind of feeling. If i could make something differences in my life easier, well, let's say to make that feeling stay away and never wanna come again, maybe i'm the happiest girl in the world.
Sooner, i will know well my feeling and make it into a decision. I will know how bored i am with you, or how happy i am with you as something important for 'now'. Well.. let the time guess and answer it in each day that i pass. I'm not hoping for something bad, but not take a high rate of hope for the good one. Just... make it become a little suprise. Neither it'll hurt me or not.

Thanks ;') You really make me feelin' better.

The confession...

2011-01-16T02:40:00.000-08:00

S. Iya, aku lagi mau ngejujurin dan 'nelanjangin diri' tentang semua yang udh kita lewatin selama ini, sampai sekarang. Karena aku ngeliat 1 blog cewek yang namanya Clara (visit her blog then, she has a good words on hers...) Yes, because of her, aku mau bgt ngasih tau perasaan aku dan hasil observasi aku ttg hubungan kita yg udah jalan 3 bulan 1 minggu 2 hari.

Cuek. Kalem. Jail. Iseng. Gila. Stress. Autis. Imbisil. Solid. Ya itu semua kamu, S. dan ga cuman aku doang yang bilang kamu kayak gitu. Iris kuping aku kalo ada yg bilang kamu orangnya pendiem. Sifat kamu yang jail nya kadang suka berlebihan, yg kadang jg suka bikin org kesel dan jadi nganggep kamu rendah. Asal kamu tau, byk yg blg hal-hal negatif km di sekolah yang dalam beberapa waktu bikin aku mikir ttg sifat-sifat km itu. Tapi aku tahan. Aku tutup kuping aku dan keep believing. Aku mau hubungan kita bertahun-tahun. However if it'll not be able, paling enggak sampe aku bisa ngerubah dan ngebuat km jd manusia yg lebih baik di banyak mata memandang. Paling enggak sampe aku susah untuk ngelupain kamu kayak wkt aku sm D. He did many things that made me hard to forget. Aku ga minta kamu untuk bisa sama kayak D kok, Aku hanya....
Hanya minta kamu untuk bisa ada buat aku. Ga perlu fisik, tapi aku bisa ngerasain nya di sini, di dalam hati, dan otak. Aku pgn bgt bisa kayak cewek2 yang punya cowo dan doing things with craziness, dan mereka ngerasa bebas untuk bisa curhat ttg masalah2 nya. Tapi.. skrng, dimana posisinya km adalah pacar aku, aku malah takut untuk cerita. Takut kamu ga perduli. Pernah aku coba sekali untuk ngajakin bahas masalah serius (re:mslh ttg aku), tp ujung2nya km ga bisa ngasih saran dan malah terkesan ga peduli, ga ngedengerin, ga merhatiin. Kamu terlalu biasa untuk nanggepin masalah dengan gak-keseriusan-kamu. Aku suka bercanda, aku suka kamu iseng, tp tolong, ada tempat dan batasannya...

Aku ga minta kamu berubah untuk ga iseng. Aku ga minta kamu berubah untuk jadi org yg serius. Aku cuman minta kamu bisa sdkt dewasa dgn umur km yg udah 17 thn itu. Dan... aku minta kamu sadar kalo kamu tuh punya 'pacar'. I know that you actually know what's mean of having a girlfriend. Special, berbeda, dan bikin kangen kan? Tp aku sering bgt ga ngerasain aura kita pacaran. Aku gak kayak cewe2 kebanyakan kok yg minta kamu untuk selalu ngasih kabar, mau kayak gini, harus kayak gitu, enggak... but i think it's an ordinary request. I just ask you to be this 'relationship' real means. Jadi, kita bener2 pacaran. Bener-bener.

Aku tau itu udh dasar sifat kamu. Yg cool, cuek. Tapi, kalau kamu udh nentuin 1 hal/alasan kenapa kamu kayak gt, berarti itu pasti ada risk nya sendiri. Kalau kamu milih nembak aku, dan jadiin aku pcr, itu berarti km siap ngebagi perhatian dan syg kamu. Antara keluarga, temen, sahabat, Aku tau kamu solid. Kamu bener2 sayang sama komunitas kamu itu, tapi.. Hey, ada aku disini. Yg gabisa cuman diem ngeliat kamu sm komunitas kamu itu terus. Kalau aku boleh nyindir ; "Pacaran aja lo sana sama temen2 lo" Hhft...

Well, i'm glad of myself who always want to keep this relation cause believe on something, that you can change. Bisa aja aku skrng minta putus sama kamu, dan toh aku yakin kamu jg gabakal ngelarang-larang atau ga setuju. Karena kamu belum menganggap hubungan kita ini 'penting', yg bener2 harus dipertahanin. Jadi, like as always.. "Terserah kamu aja". Your daily, favorite words. So please, i beg you up. Start now or you'll stay to act like usual- like having no girlfriend. I mind that you'll-do-a-little-change.

This is not even good.
May you understand it,
cause we're something.

(sometimes but often)i hate being alone!

2011-01-15T22:29:00.000-08:00

So for God sake i hate when i'm being alone. Really..really... seems like have no one. Like you're left by people. Like no ones want to have a day out with you. Pain, the most right word which drew the means.
And i feel it. Whenever. I don't know but sometimes it's happened and waw.... painfully, damn much. I'm here just with my handphone and computer ( At least they continue my life). God, this is fvckin damn!

Suck. Everything's same.

The birthday boy♥

2011-01-12T22:43:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday!! The very birthday boy, Sundoro Anugrah. You're 17 now, and it means that you must change a lil bit things in your life. Change in a bracket that you must be wiser, better, smarter, more diligent, can make your parents proud, and the important thing; to more love me. We've been through this relationship for 3month 1 week 2 days, and i want it continue 'til one of us want a break apart. I wanna be your girl who can make you feel free to laugh, share, and talk. I wanna be your girl who can keep your big secret and hug you if you gonna cry(may be someday you will ;p). I wanna be your everything, your priority.
In this age 17, i just hope that you could be a different man, not a boy anymore. I want you to become something precious that people hard to forget. I pray you can reach your dreams. All of your dreams must be come true. I pray you to not have many problems and get an easy life to walk on. And... i pray you to more care about me, pay attention to me, and no more a cool man that sok cuek bebek najis cuih!

The main point, i pray for all the best. All, of everything. I love you, SA.

I like your laugh when your strong-teeth is up.
I like everything about you even the worst.

Be nice year, 2011!

2011-01-01T04:46:00.000-08:00

Happy new year of 2011! Sorry for the rude things and mistakes i've done in 2010. Make a better year for a better living, ready to face the new of everything, and wish all wishes in 2011 are come true. Amin ya rabbal alamin...

What i've done/got in 2010 ;

1) I broke up with D and made a relationship with C, but lot of dilemma.
2) I did many performances with my theater BANGKIT in Grjs Bulungan.
3) I reached my second grade in 28 shs and part of AstroBoy ( Association of social one ready to blast the year of 2010). Got so many experiences of friendship and spirit of a nation.
4) In October was the beutiful month because it's my birthday and someone said 'love' to me. Yeah he is my ex-boyf in jhs. S. And i heart him so damn much now.
5) I knew everything that i don't know it before/yet. I felt many abstract feelings. Happy, unhappy, sad, glad, blue, proud, cheated, cared, and being considered. I've learned many things in that year. And will make the '011 better than '010. Will make some innovation on my life and be more creative. All i've and wanna do is just to be an useful girl. For family, friends, and around.
Amin, amin, amin.
But thousand thanks i give to this blog. Yeah i don't have to explain or tell the reasons. This blog is my life. My everything. My heart, my call, anything that precious. Thanks for the posts that make me believe a strength of a sentences. How a word can bring you to make a better life. Thank you so much.

Today's song ; A Rocket To The Moon - Like We Used To

Well, how 'bout you? Wanna make an innovation too;)?

Will he love you like i loved you? Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feelin' you're invincible with every word he'll tell?
Can you promise me if this was right, don't throw it all away
Will you do all these things?
Like we used to

...

2010-12-28T04:50:00.000-08:00

I give a shit for this situation. I give my thousand middle fingers for this uncomfortable zone. And YOU, should aware and realize what i feel and will do. I know you are a man, described so strong and God of the woman, because man can easily broke the heart. But it'll never stop me to judge YOU as the hell of this world. As something who never feel the pain like i felt, and never feel sorry when you did something wrong. You know, i always want to talk this shit front of your face and say, " You never appreciate my feelin'. You never feel the way i have felt. You never cared about me, and you never do something romanticly or preciously that'll make me die for you. You just think this important thing easily and usual which never you understand its important and precious position. You-never-appreciate-me. That's the problem of your life, you damn! "

Feel much better? So much better. Thanks blog.

Merry x-mas!

2010-12-25T18:55:00.000-08:00

We wish you a merry christmas and a happy new year! Well, for those who celebrate it, have a good one and may God bless you all ;') Specially for my boyfriend, have a great christmas with your whole family, i love you ;*!
Here is some pict that i took the location in Pacific Place, many different kinds of christmas tree!

Enough. Thanks for visiting my blog and don't forget as usual, leave your link and we can make friends! Thank you so much♥ ♥

We wish you a merry christmas
We wish you a merry christmas
We wish you a merry christmas
And a happy new year

Mom's day

2010-12-22T02:30:00.000-08:00

I know that we just passed many bad and good things in this unknown condition and situation. But please stay the same. Be my mom who always there for me, love me more, and waitin' me home every i go with the strangers. I love you no matter who you are. I love you no matter world has changed. I just really tired of this awkward thingy and want to fall deep in your hug and your kiss in my forehead.

Without you there's no me. Without you there's no my life that has been going for 17 years. Without somebody who i called 'mom', there's no something precious that she showed me, how to enjoy and grateful my life instead. I just love you, no more. But more for the love. Even you hate me, even you really don't know myself well, even you and me are really talk less, but everything were beautiful. And it'll be more beautiful if i can make you proud.

Somehow for several month i didn't feel and get a good relation between us. Angriness is like our bestfriend. We just stuck in our down-mental-condition to pass the situation. We just think about ourselves, individuality. Sometimes, i miss the moment we passed together as a 'family' of 4 members that had a really great adventure. I really understood what a real mean of family. Father, mother, and sister. But now, i really don't feel it yet. I don't know but that's the fact. I miss our laughed and i really love them even they don't feel the same.

I'm not making this just to lie in front of you, guys. I just take the heart out, in hope that i can feel much better. I can feel and think that my family is gonna be alright. This is just about a situation which is impossible to make it full of happiness every time. A really awkward situation that i'll pass it slowly but clearly. Oh, God. Give me a strength....

Just it. I do really love my family, and specially my mom. I don't know how to draw this feelings but it's going to bigger and bigger, i hope so.

' Mom, happy mom's day. You know you just like an angel who sent from heaven. You give me many things to learned, to felt, to loved. You are the reasons why i keep struggle to reach our dreams. One purpose in my life : just to be the way i am and making everybody proud of me, specially you. All i wanna say is i love you, mom. '

Just a trouble-maker confession

2010-12-14T20:13:00.000-08:00

2 hari ini saya sangat merasa bahwa saya hanyalah hidup untuk menciptakan masalah/sensasi yang menganggu semua orang. Saya berfikir bahwa banyak sekali sifat saya yang tidak disukai orang. Tanpa perlu disebutkan pun saya tahu bahwa saya hanyalah pembuat masalah yang sebaiknya jauh-jauh dari kehidupan banyak orang.

Tapi, apa saya salah jika saya ingin berteman? Apa saya salah jika saya ingin bergaul dan bersosialisasi dengan semuanya? Apa saya salah jika saya punya kekurangan? Apa saya salah mempunyai sifat itu? Tolong, di garis bawahi, kekurangan/kelebihan saya semuanya bukan kemauan dari diri saya sendiri. Itu namanya pemberian, dari Allah, atau Tuhan. Kalau sejak lahir saya bisa memilih sifat saya sendiri, saya akan memilih sesuatu yang tanpa kekurangan. Kekurangan itu hanya beban, beban hidup yang harus ditanggung.

Tapi, apa kalian tidak berfikir kalau kalian juga punya kekurangan?
Selama ini saya berusaha untuk memaklumi kekurangan kalian masing-masing, dan mencoba dewasa dengan mengindahkan kekurangan kalian itu. Saya tidak pernah berfikir, bahkan terbesit alasan untuk membenci kalian semua, tetapi kenapa tiba-tiba ada yang membenci saya hanya karena kekurangan saya yang menurut saya sepele?

Jadi, saya harus bagaimana? Mengubah diri saya menjadi manekin atau boneka yang lebih baik diam dan anti-sosial? Saya juga punya kehidupan, hey. Manusia itu makhluk sosial seperti apa yang dikatakan Aristoteles, yang butuh teman, keluarga yang menyayangi nya. Saya gak neko-neko kok, saya tidak pernah meminta saya lahir dari keluarga orang kaya atau punya teman yang seorang artis atau famous se antero jagad. Saya mencoba bersyukur dan menjalani apa yang telah diberikan.

Saya sangat menyayangi teman-teman saya yang sekarang. Menurut saya, mereka lah yang terbaik untuk hidup saya sekarang-sekarang ini. Mereka yang bisa membuat saya tertawa lebar bahkan, ya, menangis. Untuk pertama kali nya saya menangis karena takut akan kehilangan seorang teman.

Kalau sekali lagi saya boleh memilih, saya ingin diri ini bukanlah makhluk sosial yang butuh orang lain, bahkan merepotkan orang lain. Saya ingin menjadi orang yang bisa mandiri bahkan tidak usah pusing memikirkan perasaan sakit, sedih, senang, apalah. Saya ingin menjadi orang yang tidak pernah menyakiti hati orang lain akan kekurangan/kelebihan saya. Saya ingin menjadi orang yang tahu batasan bercanda dan serius. Saya ingin tidak punya kekurangan. Ya, tidak perlu punya kekurangan.

Permintaan saya itu bukanlah semata-mata karena ego saya, tapi untuk kebaikan semuanya. Dari SD, SMP, sampai sekarang duduk di kelas 2 SMA, hidup saya tidak pernah lepas dari yang namanya perselisihan pertemanan. Saya ingin, ingin sekali menjadi orang yang menyenangkan di mata semua orang dan kehidupan sekolahnya damai-damai saja---bukan berarti tidak ada masalah. Tapi, sekali lagi. Apa kekurangan ini saya yang minta? Apa saya salah mempunyai kekurangan?

Tolong, hargai saya sebagai makhluk Tuhan yang punya kekurangan. Jika kekurangan saya itu menganggu anda-anda sekalian, tolong di maklumi, dan di nasehati. Agar saya bisa intropeksi dan tidak melakukannya lagi.

PS : Gue pengen bgt jadi cowo sumpah, lebih baik main fisik kalo lagi berantem ketimbang main perasaan/ diomongin di belakang. HHHfft!

Happy new year of hijriah

2010-12-06T16:36:00.000-08:00

"Allahu akbar Allahu akbar Allahu akbar Walillah ilham"

Hp7 part 1

2010-11-28T18:16:00.000-08:00

To the point, so in this post i want to share my opinion about a movie which it sounds familiar to us. Yap, that's Harry potter - The deathly hallows part1 as we know the film director was divided the movie into 2 part. The first in this November and the second will be in April 2011.

Eventually the most people have known the ending because they have read the book, but for the others who haven't read the book yet must be conclude that the movie made curious! Every scene had a confusing act and made people so curious about the next, and can't wait for it.

But for the rest of the movie, as a big fans of Harry potter series, i love the movies. In the scene of Nagini, it was so awesome if it on 3d. Ron Weasley! Uwh man.... can't describe how good his body. I guess people are start to love bigger than Harry( because my friends are love a lot of Ron! ) And Neville Longbottom, even just in 1 scene but he was so cool with said, "He's not here,loser!" Awww i can't describe more, because everything was in right position.

i love this pict, from rini's tumblr!

Enough for the review of the movie, for you who have not watch the haryy potter, just watch it in hurry! Thanks guys for the attention, and have a blast sunday!

" The boy who lived...come to the death"

About a day

2010-11-20T11:09:00.000-08:00

Huba huba guys. Let's turn on your moodbooster and making this crazier, because today is......

A day that would be the best day ever in our life. I don't need to explain what 'saturday' it is, because i'm sure that you all have your own explanation of that cutie day. So, be nice saturday. Everybody always wait for this day because this is different. Everybody hopes that everyday is saturday and so do i.
Okay people, let's talk about something important now. I wanna discuss 'something',who always get mad my mind because their songs and specially for the vocalist! Here we are..................

MAROON 5!

Yeah,maroon 5! A simply band but obviously make me so get mad! I can handle my body and my mouth to sing if hear their songs. Specially for the vocalist, Adam Noah Levine. Oh boy, he successfully makes me in love for billion times....
And so on, i already knew a news that make me so frighten, just see it below ;

FEEL SO SO EXCITED! I can't imagine how huge the concert will be. And i can't stand to do nothing when i think about Adam Levine! His charismatic and face.........oh my! I've to save my money and buy it faster! Even if the tix was sold out before i get the money...T_T So poor, money is the main problems of life. Damn you fvck money! Oh God, i can't lose this chance! Please, please please imma crazier about kindda this thingy.

Okay guys, it's a pleasure and so much fun that i could post this. Make sure you are often to visit this blog. Just type in your Mozilla, Safari, or anything with www.tyawanted.blogspot.com, and you'll see something different in every post (i hope so ;'p). And hell yeah, i just made a new chat box or c-box, directly in below. Just scroll your mouse and you'll see a black rectangle with white-red line. If you catch it, just type some comment or leave your any critics. And don't forget to leave your link of blog, tumblr, deviant art, or anything. So i can visit you back and we can make friends ;') Thanku for today guys! Wish your saturday will be the best day ever!

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was alwyas there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

A pray from us

2010-11-13T17:03:00.000-08:00

We all know about the disasters that has been happened in Indonesia. Flood in Wasior, Papua, volcano eruption in Merapi, Yogyakarta, and tsunami in Mentawai, West Sumatera. People has been so panic and afraid of the condition and situation in Indonesia. World seems like angry to us. And God seems like put a lil reminders of the power's.
Now let ourselves or our pure heart start to realize that we've to help each other. We have to build our humanity of life with helping them, the victims, specially kids. A little step from us can bring much gift from them. They'll think that we're true one family. One nation of Indonesia. They'll think that we care of each other. So, don't be afraid to start one move even that's a little. Somehow that little will be the biggest if we always want to start something. Remember, God created us to be one. Not to be our own selves. But one. One of everything.

NEW post.

2010-11-12T16:56:00.000-08:00

I'm just about thinking how long i don't have any new post in this kindda blog. I don't have any idea to explain how busy my life was. So sorry for you all readers if so bored with this old blog. I try to make my mood come up to type something fun, but it's often not work. Let's we start it from zero.
Hello guys! Well, it's a pleasure that i can comeback for a while in order to type something new. But trully i don't have any idea to post or to discuss some topics. But, how about i discuss something strange that have a common with my.....feeling?

" I have found someone new"

Yeah, i've found someone new. Exactly he's my ex-boyfriend in junior high school. And now he's my boyfriend for twice. Yeah i had a surprise in my birthday day. He wanted me to be his girlfriend, again ;).

Yeah, you're so special, dude. Keep it long lasting. I'll never get bored with you, seems like. Sure, just with watch your dumb face and i already laugh a lot!! Furthermore, i like you a lot.
So this is the end of this post. Sorry for the grammar and vocabulary if it's wrong. I just want to fluent my english ;''0

So thank you so much for you who read and interested with my blog. Don't forget to type some words in the chat-box and if you have a blog/tumblr just leave your link there. So i can visit yours back. And we can make friends too!

♥

2010-10-31T07:52:00.000-07:00

ℒℴѵℯ is......more than just a word. More than just this world. More than just you and me. More than everything we know. Needed the most.

I'm in love, God.
Cupid has just done his task ; to make some love in world.
And he made it.

the boom-box

2010-10-22T19:18:00.000-07:00

I often to dream something which in fact i can't do that easily. Somehow it's hard to find the right place to make it come true. I quite love dancing so bad. And i just can make a fool face while i see many people have the skill easier. I won't lie myself, and people around. I love dancing very much. Since i was child, and 'til now. Can't stop move this body while listening to many beat up-songs. I don't want to be naive, but that's what i exactly feel. I want to show my skill front of everybody on the dance floor, but it's quite hard though i don't have many good movements cause i rarely to do the exercise.

And i just watched Step Up 3D yesterday. It was cool, with the tap and the popping and more for the breakdancing. But the pirates ( The name of the dance group) will be not amaze people if there's not moose and the twins. They adorable, and amazing!

Moose

and the Lombard-twins

and...there's someone who so make me hot!

Rick Malambri, as Luke!

So this is story from me and my friend, icha or we usually call her chaba. We love and want to explore our skill but in fact we don't have any right place to share and perform. But we don't want to give up, at least we dance and exercise it by ourselves. And hey, i adore a dance crew who started everything from be the winner of America's Best Dance Crew!! Here they are, JABBAWOCKEEZ!

Enough from here, thanks for pay a lil attention for this post. And the point is, It's usual if we've a dream that there are so many obsctacles and we've to struggle keep move on, aren't it? Just do what you want and you can do. There's nothing can failed yours if we keep tryin' to share what we love. Seeya!

I can be your freak i i i can be your freak
everyday of everyweek.

Eksis 2010

2010-10-15T06:39:00.000-07:00

Salam 2010 kepada para pembaca blog saya hari ini.

Kenapa 2010? Ya, banyak hal-hal fenomenal yang sudah terjadi/sedang terjadi di tahun 2010 ini. Sekarang sudah bulan Oktober, dan berarti itu adalah penghujung tahun ini.
Well, gak banyak yang bisa saya komentarin. Tapi kali ini saya mau membahas sebuah dinamika dilema yang terjadi pada teman saya. Masalahnya lebih kepada : " Tertekan saat melakukan hal yang ia cintai ". Hai untuk orang-orang eksis disana, yang setiap hari saat pulang sekolah menyempatkan waktu untuk sekedar refreshing di PIM, citos, etc. Yang setiap malam minggu adalah jadwal wajib untuk hang out sama teman-teman gengnya, hai.

Sadar gak, bahwa anda hidup di dunia ini itu bukan hanya anda dan orang-orang yang anda sayangi dan butuhkan? Anda hidup dengan puluhan ribuan jutaan manusia lain yang mempunyai perasaan untuk dihargai. Dan memang hakikatnya, kita menghargai setiap manusia, dr ubun-ubun kepala sama jengkal jempol kaki. Terkadang ke 'eksis' an anda membuat anda buta. Buta akan keberadaan orang lain yang seharusnya menjadi bagian terpenting. Semua orang penting, menurut saya. Punya peran, naskah, dan dialog yang harus dimainkan dengan kemampuan sendiri-sendiri. Layaknya sebuah pertunjukkan, 1 orang lenyap maka hancurlah pertunjukkan itu.

Saya yakin, anda orang cerdas, atau menganggap diri anda cerdas? Sehingga anda bisa men- judge orang baik buruknya hanya dari penampilan bahkan material? Sepertinya material telah dijadikan 'Tuhan' di kehidupan sekarang ini. Semua bergantung pada nya. Kelangsungan hidup seseorang juga ditentukannya. Kejam? Memang.

Saya hanya ingin kedamaian dengan perubahan sikap anda yang seringkali merugikan banyak pihak. Anda tidak pernah sadar telah melakukan hal itu, semata-mata anda merasa bahwa apa yang anda lakukan selalu benar. Orang lain punya hak dan posisi yang harus dihargai, dan harus diakui. Jangan menganggap bahwa semua orang tidak setinggi derajat anda. Semua sama di mata Tuhan, kepercayaan dan ketakwaannya lah yang membuat semua nya berbeda. Saya bukannya mau sok bijak ataupun benar, tapi ini lah yang saya pikirkan. Bahwahasanya, ke 'eksisan' seseorang telah menjadi tolak ukur dalam bersosialisasi.

Tidak habis pikir, begitu besarnya pengaruh stratifikasi di zaman yang sedang saya jalani. Mungkin itu sudah terjadi dari dulu, bahkan saya tidak tahu akarnya bagaimana. Yang jelas, manusia itu banyak yang menganggap remeh yang lainnya hanya karena perbedaan garis takdir dan rezeki. Mereka merasa ada di atas, dan tidak boleh sama sekali bersentuhan dengan yang di bawah. Mereka membuat peraturan dan mengharamkannya dengan mudah. Layaknya sudah menjadi presiden dalam kehidupan mereka sendiri.

Ya, pada akhirnya yang saya harapkan hanyalah adanya setitik kesadaran dari orang-orang yang merasa ini. Yang lain juga punya perasaan dan hak untuk diakui, dihargai kerja keras nya dan usahanya selama ini. Jangan berlagak karena anda sudah diatas angin seketika membuat anda tidak perduli dan membodohkan masalah-masalah lain. Kalo sudah menyangkut hati dan perasaan, manusia paling sensitif. Dan tolong, itu dihargai.

" Ketika sudah datang waktunya, maka kau lah yang akan berbalik meminta tolong kepada sekitarmu, saat orang-orang yang kau harapkan sudah meninggalkanmu "

Terima kasih buat teman saya, Indriana Sularni, yang menginspirasikan saya untuk membuat pernyataan seperti ini. Best kiss for you...

Finally.

2010-10-10T04:24:00.000-07:00

It was such a monster week. I did the first formatif test, and it was quite killed me. Ate my happiness and the freedom. Damn, that things which one makes me so crazy. That's why i can't post anything in one week or more(?). Bad blogger, yeah-,-/
So, i want tell you something important!!

JUST BE THERE GUYS!

Teater Bangkit SMAN 28 dalam FestivaLTeaterSLTASe-Jabodetabek mempersembahkan naskah "KARAKOUSH". Sutradara DiniHartiningtyas. TgL 13 Oktober 2010, Pkl. 19.00 WIB. Di AuditoriumGORBuLungan. HTM Rp 25.000 ; VIP Rp 35.000

--From rini's tumblr :") thanks!

amel's and chaba's party

2010-09-29T20:47:00.000-07:00

Hi everybody. Today is thursday, and i didn't came to school. I have got headache from the last night, and still like that in the last morning where i have go to school. Okay, so i'll show you some photos of me and my friends in a birthday party or birthday bash you can call it. It was amel's and chaba's party, on Saturday. The party was held in barcode kemang, and it was super cool! Check this out baby ;

Okay then. What i've to talking about? Nothing. I have nothing to disscuss or talk. Maybe next post. Hope i can discuss something with you all, the readers. Thanks for your visit. Just do it for many times x") I hope you kind to read my little diary,here. Thanks for your attention, and "never get headache" for you of all. It's killing me softly anyway (T__T)/ have a nice thursday and goodbye!

There's some feeling that you try to hide it.

C'mon, where the heck the real you?I need it.

mine.

2010-09-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lately post. It's hard enough to get a time, sit front of the computer and start to type many sentences in this blog. Well, it's hard enough too to build my mood in the right way. Perhaps, i'll make a useful post and you interested to read.

So,it has been a week since we went to school last monday. We all looks like very busy with our usual activities. Student go to school, the workers go to their own office. Well, just do the best for your each day. It'll be easier if you just accept all of things that being your own responsible. Enjoy the world fellas!

Right, so i'll share you some photos of me and my family that had a nice holiday after last eid mubarak. Here we are ;

The night and the card......

Done with the photos things. I love and miss the moment so much. When my family met and talked each other. When we all had a dumb thing and we were laughed as much as we could. When i won't get back to school and will spend my life time with them. It was so much fun, dude. Grateful so much that i had this big family and i love them very much. Wholehearted. They are my treasure, my reasons to continue the life. My breathe in every walk that i take. My tears which get out in the eyes, and something completely absolutely......beautiful. That's my family, with the plus or minus. I don't even care. All we need just a perfect combination of our pattern of family. We strong to pass the problems. We always know that every big family must have their own problems, either mine. And so.......together with the time, we can passed it successfully. Thank God, i have you all.

That's the family description from me. How about you? What family real mean in your mind?

Thanks.a.lot.

I wish you were here.

With all of your kindness.

happy idul fitri everyone!

2010-09-10T03:54:00.000-07:00

Happy idul fitri 1431 H everyone! Wooooooow! i never imagine that the time just ran so fast. It's like... the last yesterday we did fasting, and now we just celebrate the idul fitri! The greatest, biggest, and the most amazing days that happen once a year. Get so many food such as 'ketupat' or 'rendang', get much money from the siblings, and meet our whole family and share the happiness each other. So great. I love this moment very much. I hope that everyday pass just like this big day. Spend your time with a whole family is the best moment ever! ;D

Subhanallah, walhamdulillah, walailahalillaulah, huallah hu akbar.

shoya tomizawa RIP

2010-09-05T22:58:00.000-07:00

What a monday grey in jakarta or maybe in another cities too......it's raining on and on. The cloud is so grey and nothing have some bright. Sun has hide itself, and nothing we can do at least to wait it out and show it face.

And maybe it's a sign and reminders of something which happened yesterday. Shoya Tomizawa, our rider of motoGP of class 250CC from Japan, died tragiclly yesterday, September 5th 2010 when the competition begun in San Marino, Italia.

Died in 19. A talented rider of motoGP who so unlucky. People never predicted about the accident that happened. Here the accident in a slowmotion that i got it in youtube ; (Feel sorry if the youtube window isn't fit with the blog's size. But actually i still want to show the video. Sorry if it isn't nice as usual--the size. )

He passed away for a thing that he loved so much. He passed away and always be a winner for his strength and did something amazing in our heart. Good bye tomi, we'll always miss you, our rider.

Got it? We never know about the death. It can happens and comes to you anywhere, anytimes. So, let we think about it use our own brain and heart. " If i die in 1 hour later, will i regret it cause i never do something useful things in my life? " You can get it by yourself. Will start to do many useful things for many people and your own self or just.....run in your site and do nothing. Speechless, and hopeless. It's your choice.

Doom.
Doom.
Doom.